I texted…

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So I broke my No Contact Rule already & texted him this morning telling him that I need some next week.

He is just a fuck buddy anyhow, so might as well take advantage when I need to.

He didn’t text back, but I’m not bothered. Next week is gonna be cray so I would love some happy sexy time & I’m defo ready for it, but I do have 2 hour spa session booked in already as well as entire week of sauna treatments.

My best friend is also flying in from London & I can’t wait to see her & catch up on everything.

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I miss you, or not

So a few days ago I texted him that I missed him. Now this is not real. I mean this is not me really missing him.

This is what happens when I am not myself and I am feeling down and weak and bored too. You see I got sick this week and I have been spending a lot if time at home recovering and of course at my worst I missed him, but now I am getting better and I don’t really miss him anymore.

I am however going to do the 6 week texting test. So basically No Contact for 6 weeks & if he doesn’t text me, then he defo doesn’t care. The point of the time frame is to back off & see if the silence makes him think of me & makes him wonder what I’m up to & if I am on his mind at all during this time.

Of course now, I am on a lookout for a true man catch. Hopefully when I recover & start going out again I will meet someone interesting.

New Texts….The Silent Treatment

So it’s been 2 weeks since my last post & this is short little update since then. I saw him in person during last weekend on September/ 1st weekend of October. Nothing happened on Saturday or Sunday. I haven’t really received texts from him either lately, but I have sent him a few here & there.

I always know what the silence means, by now I have learned that it means he is interested in someone new or is seeing someone new or has a girlfriend. My intuition is always spot on & I end up guessing who it is & then I find about it online somehow by accident always.

Oddly enough this time around I am happy for him, because if he is seeing or dating who I think he is seeing/dating then I absolutely approve this time around. This girl is way better than his last, which I really didn’t like at all.

I am one of those crazy honest people so of course I told him that via text. I do hope that now we can form a real friendship & be cool with 1 another.  So now I am officially leaving it alone, although I have been in that mode for some time now. I did manage to get over all my anger about him recently too.

I am in this mood of really wanting to find the right guy right now & I want to be treated really well, like I deserve to be treated. I sort of don’t want to settle for anything less. I am not in a hurry to meet a guy, but open to meeting 1. Of course I can be crazy picky, but if I feel a connection with someone, there’s a chance it can go somewhere.

Excited for what’s ahead because it’s unknown & mysterious & full of beautiful possibilities.


Love, J XOXO

Just updates….on same guy

He was texting me every day for 2 weeks then it sort of slowed down to minimal because he pretty much told me when I’m ready to hit him up.

I had to work through my anger, and I had shit ton of it inside & it’s finally gone.

Nothing has happened yet… There was like a long break where we didn’t see each other – maybe 4 or 5 weeks or so. So this past weekend, we finally saw each other.

Oddly enough before I saw him, my physical attraction for him was crazy wild, dunno why. Then when I saw him, I just thought oh, ok. Like he’s ok but nothing like before. Must be something about the Love/Hate balance who knows…

I am defo focused on me now & have a lot going on so Life is defo Good at the moment 🙂

Peace, Love, Fall XOXO

The Next 3 Months

SEPTEMBER

I recently started the Ketogenic Diet and so far I’m just blown out of the water by how this way of eating makes you feel. It all started when I was watching this little show called My Diet is Better Than Yours and 1 Diet stood out the most to me on there: The Wild Diet. 

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I was particularly curious about the “fatty coffee” also knows as “keto coffee” and “bulletproof coffee“. That’s pretty much how my research started. To see what that is just go to Youtube and type in any one of those 3 names and tons of videos will pop up with recipes. Basically it’s good quality coffee + good quality butter + good quality MCT oil mixed together, and this is pretty much your new morning beverage.

My first thoughts were butter in coffee? Whaaaat? But I tried it and it’s my fave coffee beverage now and it really does make you feel limitless.

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Ok, maybe not to that extent haha but I’m telling you this is bonkers! Recently I had very bad energy issues – by 2pm I was passing out at work. I couldn’t focus, my head was down at my desk, I wanted to pass out for real. It was affecting my work, I was becoming more agitated, less interested in my work, and more bored really, and most of the all when my energy depleted so fast and so low after lunch, I couldn’t focus on anything but myself.

Because I’ve had issues with my iron levels before, I went and got that checked out and it turned out my iron levels were finally normal this year, improvement! But why was I feeling like I still had anemia? I was completely confused because nothing else was going on with me – I have had a full blood check up test a few months ago and nothing besides iron, red blood cells, ferritin and hemoglobin (all iron related) was off. Everything else was great! My health as far as I knew was all good, apart from this energy issue, which makes me think now that it must have been hormone related perhaps.

So I looked up this crazy coffee, and the wild diet and the keto diet etc, and I found out that carbs are the bad guy, this is why we have no energy. On Keto diet your body uses fat as energy and not sugar from carbs.

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They always warned us that fats are bad, and that carbs are good when I was younger. If you actually look at old food pyramids you will notice that CARBS were on the bottom of the pyramid, which meant that we should consume them the most in our diet and then the rest. Now I believe that this is defo wrong, because back in the day we probably ate meat first, so protein and fat, and then plants and whatever we found. There were no pastries and cakes around or flour for that matter…

There is a lot more to Keto than the diagram above, and I will go into more details in another post when I share some of my resources on this specific diet. Basically it’s no Sugar or Carbs or Grains – the carb amount per day varies from person to person but it can be anything from 20g – 100g of Net Carbs and this number rises if you decide to do carb loading days later. I’m very new to this Keto Journey and I am still finding a lot about it as I go.

I have been on Keto for about a week now and it has definitely changed my energy levels like crazy! I have too much energy now. Basically I have to fix my sleeping schedule now coz it’s throwing me off a bit, all this extra energy. I took my weight and body measurements as well when I started even though I usually don’t do this, I was curious what the difference would be.

As a woman my concern was my monthly cycle and how that was gonna be, because from what I’ve read your cycle will definitely change in some way. For me I can already say the changes I’ve noticed, although I have no idea how next month will be, will wait and see. So Keto is supposed to be amazing for women that suffer from PCOS, just a heads up. Basically my boobs were sore and tender the entire week I started Keto which reminds me of these same symptoms I had (PMS) before I got on Evening Primrose Oil.

Also my ovaries were on fire, like you just feel something is going on there. I knew these were hormonal changes, I wasn’t really worried, because anytime you change your diet and way of eating, your body science internally changes along with it. I was on time this month, not early, not late, and I absolutely had NO PAIN whatsoever! This is definitely a little new for me. I always have cramps, and before I used to have bad ones… In fact I had horrible PMS earlier this year and my gyno put me on Evening Primrose Oil which (after 2 months) started working and I didn’t have sore boobs, chocolate cravings, cramps, bloating, skin breakouts or any of the other PMS issues, but I do remember when I first started taking Evening Primrose Oil, I had this same boob issue, as in they were sore and a bit painful too (hormonal change).

It’s definitely hard to eat so much more fat because recently I was watching my fat intake, not crazily but was making sure I didn’t have a lot of it. I also would have carbs for either lunch or dinner but never both, but now I’m finding out that I actually had carbs all day long because carbs are in EVERYTHING pretty much! Very frustrating.

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I will keep you guys updated with my Keto Journey and weight loss and measurements and all of that. I am also about to join a gym next door as soon I won’t have my weekly Zumba classes or swimming anymore. I also want to tone and add more muscle to my body and feel stronger. Luckily the gym next door has tons of classes I can go to after work so that will be exciting!

OCTOBER

I have a really important wedding this month and I am actually in the wedding, so I’m looking at bridesmaids dresses ideas and everything, because I’m having mine custom made which will be nice. All the bridesmaids will have a ready to wear dress basically. So far we have the color and the length, and we are all allowed to have different styles so this is awesome! 2 of my closest friends are coming from London also for the wedding so I’m super excited and looking forward to this!

NOVEMBER 

I am flying off to London for 5 days. Going to do a little bit of winter sale shopping, visit my friends, enjoy the miserable grey weather 😂 you know, enjoy all the things London has to offer. I haven’t taken a trip out of the country this year, so I’m very much looking forward to this one.

I’m sure a lot more things are to come, but of course, I have no idea what they are and that’s the best part. Stay tuned for more XOXO

 

 

Update on “this guy”

I know I said I would talk about something else and don’t worry I’m about to get into that, and yes I’m still on the lookout for a new man but I also think it’s only right to keep writing updates on this past guy since there are still some updates there.

We texted almost every day this week, but just briefly. Basically he wants to see me again and told me to let him know when I’m ready for that. I said ok.

Last night I found out from his friend that he isn’t dating that girl anymore. She basically started with: “Do you know that X & Y aren’t together anymore?” “I said I don’t care.” She wanted to know what happened with us, how long it’s been going for, all the details, I already told her in short what happened via texts recently when I asked her if he’s dating that girl, so I’m not sure why she asked me again. I told her to ask him, and she said he will never tell me, and I said “Exactly!”

After that conversation I felt same as him in regards to that, as in I really didn’t wanna talk about us (again) to people. It’s nobody’s business but ours, but of course I let my closest friends know about it because what are friends for after all.

There was 1 very strange incident that happened last night that I noticed but didn’t care about – As we were sitting at the bar, drinking and talking with people, she flipped my phone cover to check the front of my phone……Who does that?? My thought was maybe she is texting with his ex girl and updating her about me, and was looking to find texts from him on my phone. You see she is friends with the recent ex, but she did also said I don’t care about her friendship recently, but I’m not sure how much of that is true.

So I’m just a bit cautious now because I don’t really know what’s going on. Maybe he and this girl broke up 3 weeks ago since she came alone to the bar last 2 Saturdays. Maybe they are in a long distance relationship now and made plans to see each other soon. I’m not sure because I haven’t asked anyone, not even him.

I did however post this as my FB status a few days ago: “I wonder if your girlfriend knows that you are still texting me – she must approve, I would too 😂” and of course I set it as a public post coz I got nothing to hide. My guess is by then they were already broken up though, but again, who knows…

That’s that for now. Next blog post will be on a lot of other things.