The 30 Day No Contact Rule Works!

Ok so I would like to tell you that if you are trying to get over someone, the 30 Day No Contact rule defo works. But more so if you DO NOT see the person in person obviously. I haven’t seen this character in a month & I’m defo not interested anymore whatsoever. I texted him to tell him that too. Oddly enough now he is sending me naughty material & with me if I’m not interested, well I’m not interested, that’s it.

I got on 1 of those lame dating apps because I will be in London soon & it would be fun to set up some dates. Recently I had a famous DJ creep up on me online & a sexy athlete & this gave me that boost I needed. Suddenly I was like What the heck was I doing with that loser when I can get this? We tend to forget our worth when we are with fuckers who make us feel like we are less of a person than we are. Try not to do that to yourself, it doesn’t feel good.

Right now I am just trying to follow happiness & my heart & wherever it leads it will be good. I want to create more awesome friendships with cool like-minded people & enjoy life more. Basically I wanna bring more FUN into my life. I have also joined a GYM recently & I go almost every day. I wanna be super fit for next summer.

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The Next 3 Months

SEPTEMBER

I recently started the Ketogenic Diet and so far I’m just blown out of the water by how this way of eating makes you feel. It all started when I was watching this little show called My Diet is Better Than Yours and 1 Diet stood out the most to me on there: The Wild Diet. 

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I was particularly curious about the “fatty coffee” also knows as “keto coffee” and “bulletproof coffee“. That’s pretty much how my research started. To see what that is just go to Youtube and type in any one of those 3 names and tons of videos will pop up with recipes. Basically it’s good quality coffee + good quality butter + good quality MCT oil mixed together, and this is pretty much your new morning beverage.

My first thoughts were butter in coffee? Whaaaat? But I tried it and it’s my fave coffee beverage now and it really does make you feel limitless.

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Ok, maybe not to that extent haha but I’m telling you this is bonkers! Recently I had very bad energy issues – by 2pm I was passing out at work. I couldn’t focus, my head was down at my desk, I wanted to pass out for real. It was affecting my work, I was becoming more agitated, less interested in my work, and more bored really, and most of the all when my energy depleted so fast and so low after lunch, I couldn’t focus on anything but myself.

Because I’ve had issues with my iron levels before, I went and got that checked out and it turned out my iron levels were finally normal this year, improvement! But why was I feeling like I still had anemia? I was completely confused because nothing else was going on with me – I have had a full blood check up test a few months ago and nothing besides iron, red blood cells, ferritin and hemoglobin (all iron related) was off. Everything else was great! My health as far as I knew was all good, apart from this energy issue, which makes me think now that it must have been hormone related perhaps.

So I looked up this crazy coffee, and the wild diet and the keto diet etc, and I found out that carbs are the bad guy, this is why we have no energy. On Keto diet your body uses fat as energy and not sugar from carbs.

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They always warned us that fats are bad, and that carbs are good when I was younger. If you actually look at old food pyramids you will notice that CARBS were on the bottom of the pyramid, which meant that we should consume them the most in our diet and then the rest. Now I believe that this is defo wrong, because back in the day we probably ate meat first, so protein and fat, and then plants and whatever we found. There were no pastries and cakes around or flour for that matter…

There is a lot more to Keto than the diagram above, and I will go into more details in another post when I share some of my resources on this specific diet. Basically it’s no Sugar or Carbs or Grains – the carb amount per day varies from person to person but it can be anything from 20g – 100g of Net Carbs and this number rises if you decide to do carb loading days later. I’m very new to this Keto Journey and I am still finding a lot about it as I go.

I have been on Keto for about a week now and it has definitely changed my energy levels like crazy! I have too much energy now. Basically I have to fix my sleeping schedule now coz it’s throwing me off a bit, all this extra energy. I took my weight and body measurements as well when I started even though I usually don’t do this, I was curious what the difference would be.

As a woman my concern was my monthly cycle and how that was gonna be, because from what I’ve read your cycle will definitely change in some way. For me I can already say the changes I’ve noticed, although I have no idea how next month will be, will wait and see. So Keto is supposed to be amazing for women that suffer from PCOS, just a heads up. Basically my boobs were sore and tender the entire week I started Keto which reminds me of these same symptoms I had (PMS) before I got on Evening Primrose Oil.

Also my ovaries were on fire, like you just feel something is going on there. I knew these were hormonal changes, I wasn’t really worried, because anytime you change your diet and way of eating, your body science internally changes along with it. I was on time this month, not early, not late, and I absolutely had NO PAIN whatsoever! This is definitely a little new for me. I always have cramps, and before I used to have bad ones… In fact I had horrible PMS earlier this year and my gyno put me on Evening Primrose Oil which (after 2 months) started working and I didn’t have sore boobs, chocolate cravings, cramps, bloating, skin breakouts or any of the other PMS issues, but I do remember when I first started taking Evening Primrose Oil, I had this same boob issue, as in they were sore and a bit painful too (hormonal change).

It’s definitely hard to eat so much more fat because recently I was watching my fat intake, not crazily but was making sure I didn’t have a lot of it. I also would have carbs for either lunch or dinner but never both, but now I’m finding out that I actually had carbs all day long because carbs are in EVERYTHING pretty much! Very frustrating.

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I will keep you guys updated with my Keto Journey and weight loss and measurements and all of that. I am also about to join a gym next door as soon I won’t have my weekly Zumba classes or swimming anymore. I also want to tone and add more muscle to my body and feel stronger. Luckily the gym next door has tons of classes I can go to after work so that will be exciting!

OCTOBER

I have a really important wedding this month and I am actually in the wedding, so I’m looking at bridesmaids dresses ideas and everything, because I’m having mine custom made which will be nice. All the bridesmaids will have a ready to wear dress basically. So far we have the color and the length, and we are all allowed to have different styles so this is awesome! 2 of my closest friends are coming from London also for the wedding so I’m super excited and looking forward to this!

NOVEMBER 

I am flying off to London for 5 days. Going to do a little bit of winter sale shopping, visit my friends, enjoy the miserable grey weather 😂 you know, enjoy all the things London has to offer. I haven’t taken a trip out of the country this year, so I’m very much looking forward to this one.

I’m sure a lot more things are to come, but of course, I have no idea what they are and that’s the best part. Stay tuned for more XOXO

 

 

The Week of D R A M A

I spent the entire week away, apart from Saturday because my fitness class was at the beach bar.

The first few days were the hardest… Tuesday & Wednesday were full of drama…

I asked him again if he was seeing this new girl, and he didn’t reply. So of course I asked our mutual friend, but before I do, I tell him that it would be stupid for me to ask other people…He didn not respond to that.

She says yes, they are and asks why… But then says you and he had something? She had no idea! I thought maybe she knew but wasn’t sure… So I give her the entire story briefly and she is a bit shocked coz she says that she thinks they are close.

  • Basically she told me that she would never get involved with a guy like him.
  • That he isn’t boyfriend material
  • That this girl is leaving in 2 weeks

and we talked about some other things, but really it’s all unimportant now.

So since I was on my summer holiday and had a break from work, I actually managed to find a new paradise beach escape where I spent the entire week away. It was exactly what I needed.

He texted me after he talked to this mutual friend, and basically we had a fight over texts. He said it was none of my business and that I am not his family and don’t need to know. I said of course it’s my business when we agreed to start seeing each other again and then he changed plans and didn’t let me know it wasn’t gonna happen. I told him and our friend, that if you aren’t interested, you just inform the other person that you met someone new and that, that is the adult thing to do and not a big deal. Once I spoke to our mutual friend, I was over it. He didn’t let it go, and was fussing over texts…

In his last messages he asked why I was telling people things, and why am saying things that aren’t true and asked what my problem was and told me that I am embarrassing him in front of everyone. I was over it, so I ignored him and did not reply. But my inner thoughts were why wasn’t he telling people the truth and what the heck is his problem acting like a manchild and not an adult, but again I was over it so whatever. After some days and time away I finally replied last night:

All good, all behind us
Don’t wanna fight w you, not worth it

He has a girl, he is supposed to be happy, so he should leave me alone now.

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Anyways I spent all week away and I wasn’t alone. I was in good company and it was exactly what I needed. On Friday I started getting this anger just thinking about seeing him tomorrow at the beach bar…

On Saturday I was there for my Zumba class and I saw him at the bar right after. He had a new shit haircut and my friend said maybe she cut his hair and we had a laugh about it. I came up with 2 new nicknames for him “fuckhead” and “fuckface” although his friend calls him asshole which is just perfect. I didn’t want to be alone so I texted my friend to come over for moral support.

After my class I wanted to get a small breakfast so I went across the street to the bakery to pick something up. As I am leaving and crossing the road guess who is smiling and saying hi to me – her. We are NOT even friends, even though we all have 1 mutual friend. She never smiles and is always moody, so obviously she has been updated on all this crap. Luckily I am wearing my sunglasses and give her the my resting bitch face and say nothing and move on.

At the bar the vibes were weird coming from them… They looked like brother & sister together or like brother & sister at a funeral. First of all if I had the day off and my girl had the morning/afternoon off, I would take her somewhere special, especially if she is leaving the country in a week or 2. Second, I dunno like WTF, why don’t you show you are interested in this person you are with – everyone there knows about them now anyways. But maybe he wants to look available for the next incoming girl, when this one leaves soon…

My friend arrived and we started drinking, and I got happy drunk and at one point for a long while, all 4 of us were sitting at the bar together; her, him, my guy friend and I at the end. If it was a competition between who was having a better Saturday and more fun, we would have won every hour.

We left a couple of times for food and whatnot and that was noticed too. When we returned the 2nd time, they were gone, finally. Everyone was taking a piss at us, and saying me and my friend are a couple but whatever, I didn’t care. I’m glad he was there for me coz the beach bar wasn’t as busy as usual and I needed someone close to me there to make it through that awful day.

On Sunday my bro came to the rescue and we went to the beach with his girl and I showed him my new fave beach spot. We had a fantastic time and I honestly didn’t wanna leave and go home. My bro’s girl spotted some superhot guy for me, but unfortunately by the time we finished eating at the restaurant area, he was gone. Anyways I had a great time and I started talking to 1 new guy from this place…

I have realized that fuckhead is indeed an asshole and that I deserve better, so kudos to me for moving on finally and cheers to a brand new start! 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Weekend Update in short

Friday

I went to the best beach party I’ve ever been to, had a blast, met a lot of people & grabbed my guy’s ass when I drunk & then hid behind my new friend.

Saturday

I enjoyed an entire day at the beach. He was there too for the most part of the day. Saw a fortune teller & she said to not overthink things & just have fun & be playful when it comes to current love life. She also said the decision is all mine since I already have this person – that it was just up to me to say yes or no & lead the way.

Sunday Funday

I arrived late at the party but it was absolutely happening when I got there. Quickly caught up on drinking, met new people & got some free drinks. He was there too. At first he appeared to be having fun but later was more chill, dunno why.

As for me, I was on another level. The entire evening was lit for me & even my body was burning with crazy wild fire of desire for him, as he stood a few feet away from me. We pretend we don’t know each other there. And I absolutely love the secrecy.

I don’t know why I’m feeling amazing right now, but this Sun in Leo phase is defo affecting me for the better. Looking forward to my long holiday starting next week & of course as always the weekend.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ex Lover Update

Saturday I went to the beach bar & my ex lover guy wasn’t there. I noticed that my Saturday was different without him. His friend, who is my friend again, who also fancies me, asked me what was going on between us & if we are still seeing each other & all that. I told him that we weren’t together for months now, but the way he was responding back, his gestures & replies just told me that they have been discussing me together. He also asked me about other guys & told me that he saw me make out with that 1 guy that 1 Saturday. He also asked me if I slept with that guy (again I dunno if he is asking for himself or for his friend) & of course I said that nothing happened between us besides that kissing session that 1 Saturday.

Saturday afternoon was just weird vibes & a lot of people, the regulars weren’t there, and the music wasn’t great. It was this monotonous repetitive sounds and beats that didn’t have much life to it, so of course my energy was down a bit. Luckily my guy friends came over there & I chilled with them for a bit & we all enjoyed a drink & talked.

Later after they left, I got a bit bored & got ready to go to the Music Festival for some awesome House music. When I got there, I saw my guy & was pretty happy to find him there. He said hi to me. His friend was there too now. We walked over together to my ex lover’s table and some of his close guy friends I hadn’t met yet were there too. Now things got a bit weird, because his friend said something like “your ex boyfriend is here (pointing at my guy) and your new boyfriend is here” he meant himself, as a joke of course coz they do that apparently, but it wasn’t funny & since I didn’t know the guys at the table, I didn’t want to to make any comments.

Neither one of us denied that he was my ex. But thing got even more weird when his friend said that I was his girlfriend, as a joke again. My guy’s reaction wasn’t good. He raised his voice & said “YOUR GIRLFRIEND?” & repeated it again, and as he was saying this you could tell that he was a bit pissed off & wasn’t happy about it. I’m not sure how he didn’t get that this was of course just a joke, especially since his friend told me that he always does that to him with girls he goes out with. I said something like “guys please just stop” coz it was embarrassing & didn’t make me look god regardless if it was true or not. You see I don’t screw the crew – I have a code: Pick 1 guy & all his friends & co-workers are off limits. We talked about this before & I told him about it. I then walked off with his friend & told him that I didn’t like that & because I saw my guy looking our way I gestured with my hands too so he knows I wasn’t happy about what just went down.

Anyways the Music Festival was a blast & I had a great time there. On Sunday he was at the beach bar and I saw him look my way & I looked away, but then looked back at him & he was still looking at me, so I looked at him too. It was one of those ok I’m interested in this person again a bit sort of looks for both of us. Sunday was a bit weird for me but it was still fun. I somehow managed to get a new love interest, not on my side, but a guy interested in me that I’m totally not interested in.

On Monday night I had a giant glass of red wine & texted him late in the evening saying that we should have fun again sometime. On Tuesday since I didn’t get a morning reply, I was starting to think that I won’t get one & that was ok too. Just as I completely moved on from it, I got his text at lunch break from him that he would like that too. This made me excited which is nice. This time around it’s just the icing on my cake, whereas before he was my cake. So I think things will be different for me now since I’m already happy. I am very much looking forward to seeing him again. I think we will have a lot of fun together. Stay tuned for more 🙂

 

Thursday Night

Last night I had a glass of red again & unlike Wednesday night I did not text my ex lover. As usual he liked a bunch of my Instagram pics (weekly thing) that usually happens on Monday morning around 9am or Tuesday at the latest, but this week was different. He is either very busy with work or a new person in his life or both.

It’s F R I D A Y & I’m excited for this weekend! Tomorrow morning I have a 10am workout class to go to, then swimming, lunch (at the beach) more swimming & then a music festival with my friends and I’m not sure yet but I might even go to the after party. Just gonna go with the flow & if the flow is good, I continue.

Sunday Funday again beach & music festival – should be fun!

Wishing everyone a very happy & fun weekend ahead! XOXO

 

 

 

In Love with Saturdays

This past Saturday was a blast! I had 1 hell of a time at the beach bar party with my friends. Saturdays have become the highlight of my week as Sunday Funday starts pretty late & I can’t stay out late as I wake up early for work Monday morning.

So I narrowed it down to just 1 guy & I don’t want to do anything about it because I like him. The other 1 I just see as a friend. And then this new guy has been driving me crazy & making me angry coz he just shows up there without even texting me… I think he thought we were in a relationship so I had to text him saying I love my single life way too much & don’t wanna change that. He played it cool & said he just wants to go out on dates and have fun, and I said I already have someone, so I think he will leave me alone now. – Relief!

So now I’m very single and nothing has been happening apart from a couple of shared kisses with 2 guys I’m absolutely not interested in. One of them was the above new guy & the other was some new German guy I met. Luckily he’s out of the country for 2 weeks so I won’t see him. There was another accent guy, we just exchanged numbers, absolutely nothing happened, and he has been texting me a lot too.

Not to self: Stop telling guys they have cool accents, coz they take it very wrong. They think you are instantly in love with them. No more of that!

I’m very much looking forward to this upcoming weekend and my full day at the beach this Saturday.

I have been working out every day, completed 1 month & I gotta say I’m exhausted because I’m not getting enough sleep. I gotta work on fixing that. Would like 8 hours every night if possible. I’ve been very busy lately too which makes the time fly by fast.

The irony is during winter I was complaining to my friends of lack of love life and now it’s crazy, I feel overwhelmed and want to be left alone most of the time. But 1 of my close friends said just enjoy it! So I will make the best of it. Relax and enjoy – Looking forward to the weekend XOXO