New Texts….The Silent Treatment

So it’s been 2 weeks since my last post & this is short little update since then. I saw him in person during last weekend on September/ 1st weekend of October. Nothing happened on Saturday or Sunday. I haven’t really received texts from him either lately, but I have sent him a few here & there.

I always know what the silence means, by now I have learned that it means he is interested in someone new or is seeing someone new or has a girlfriend. My intuition is always spot on & I end up guessing who it is & then I find about it online somehow by accident always.

Oddly enough this time around I am happy for him, because if he is seeing or dating who I think he is seeing/dating then I absolutely approve this time around. This girl is way better than his last, which I really didn’t like at all.

I am one of those crazy honest people so of course I told him that via text. I do hope that now we can form a real friendship & be cool with 1 another.  So now I am officially leaving it alone, although I have been in that mode for some time now. I did manage to get over all my anger about him recently too.

I am in this mood of really wanting to find the right guy right now & I want to be treated really well, like I deserve to be treated. I sort of don’t want to settle for anything less. I am not in a hurry to meet a guy, but open to meeting 1. Of course I can be crazy picky, but if I feel a connection with someone, there’s a chance it can go somewhere.

Excited for what’s ahead because it’s unknown & mysterious & full of beautiful possibilities.


Love, J XOXO

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Update on “this guy”

I know I said I would talk about something else and don’t worry I’m about to get into that, and yes I’m still on the lookout for a new man but I also think it’s only right to keep writing updates on this past guy since there are still some updates there.

We texted almost every day this week, but just briefly. Basically he wants to see me again and told me to let him know when I’m ready for that. I said ok.

Last night I found out from his friend that he isn’t dating that girl anymore. She basically started with: “Do you know that X & Y aren’t together anymore?” “I said I don’t care.” She wanted to know what happened with us, how long it’s been going for, all the details, I already told her in short what happened via texts recently when I asked her if he’s dating that girl, so I’m not sure why she asked me again. I told her to ask him, and she said he will never tell me, and I said “Exactly!”

After that conversation I felt same as him in regards to that, as in I really didn’t wanna talk about us (again) to people. It’s nobody’s business but ours, but of course I let my closest friends know about it because what are friends for after all.

There was 1 very strange incident that happened last night that I noticed but didn’t care about – As we were sitting at the bar, drinking and talking with people, she flipped my phone cover to check the front of my phone……Who does that?? My thought was maybe she is texting with his ex girl and updating her about me, and was looking to find texts from him on my phone. You see she is friends with the recent ex, but she did also said I don’t care about her friendship recently, but I’m not sure how much of that is true.

So I’m just a bit cautious now because I don’t really know what’s going on. Maybe he and this girl broke up 3 weeks ago since she came alone to the bar last 2 Saturdays. Maybe they are in a long distance relationship now and made plans to see each other soon. I’m not sure because I haven’t asked anyone, not even him.

I did however post this as my FB status a few days ago: “I wonder if your girlfriend knows that you are still texting me – she must approve, I would too 😂” and of course I set it as a public post coz I got nothing to hide. My guess is by then they were already broken up though, but again, who knows…

That’s that for now. Next blog post will be on a lot of other things.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Back to Normal…

I texted him…you know when you just need some lame excuse to say something so you can text in hopes of maybe making the situation better, well I tried for that & it worked because we were back to fun & flirting…

He said I was being stupid (he is referring to my Week of D R A M A post) & that I owe him one, I admit to being a bit stupid & say he owes me 1 too.

He wanted me to send him a hot photo, I said no you send, he said I’ll send if you send bla bla but I was busy so I told him I’ll surprise you which didn’t work lol then I told him I would for fucking sure if I could & left him hanging at Why can’t you?

But before that he asked where I was & I honestly should have replied with “playing checkers w/ your g/f & guess who’s winning” total inside joke relating to this August Wednesday & more details on that Wed here

Anyways back to the naughty photo. I was texting with 1 of my girlfriends & was telling her how I miss the fun sexy side of him & then came up with random hot photo idea which is also a prank in a way.

just friends.jpg

I saw these & told my friend I would order them & them take a sexy photo & send it to him. Another joke really about him saying we are just friends a few weeks ago…if he was a good boy I would totally order these below, but he doesn’t deserve! 😂😂😂

EYHO

My friend said I nave a naughty side to me, I replied the right kind of asshole bring it out of me…

Anyways I was pretty happy all night & was amazed at how quickly he could turn me on. I defo miss all the fun & sexy parts of what we used to have. Was thinking recently I wish I started blogging when this all started over a year ago coz there’s so much more to it…

If you wanna order any of the above items you can do that here: NO BRA CLUB They have a cool split installation payment plan option too.

 

 

Oh Monday…

I hate you…

Actually Monday was fine, apart from this:

I text him this morning via only app I haven’t blocked him on [Snapchat] – mainly because I didn’t even have it on my phone at the time… and I say I want us to be cool…

He is angry at me for stupid shit we went over already & honestly right now I have still overall more reason than him to be angry, but I hate anger & never see the point in holding onto to it. Last time we texted, I wanted to explode at him, but I took the higher road…

Anyways we texted morning/afternoon & he was mostly angry while I was cooler. That’s not even the issue – the issue is it’s the middle of the night & I can’t sleep coz that fuckhead & his anger is eating away at me…

I can’t get him/that off my mind. My current insomnia thoughts are, text him tomorrow/next day & ask if he wants to talk in person. I just want peace & nothing else.

 

Keep Calm, You have been Blocked

On Sunday I didn’t go to the beach bar & it was a great decision. We had another fight via texts & it wasn’t good. I pretty much told him to leave me the hell alone. But I’ve also had enough so I blocked him on ALL Social Media accounts and on my phone. I think he took it seriously this time…

Today he wasn’t at the beach bar which is very odd for him. Hopefully it’s because he knows I hate his guts and don’t want to see his fucking face. I saw her for 5 minutes but then she left too.

She is leaving this coming week I think so it will be nice not to see them again. I don’t think I’m going to the beach bar tomorrow. He gave me my Saturday so I’ll give him his Sunday. Feels like a bad divorce with him now and splitting the beach bar between us.

I am not sure when this anger will stop, but I don’t see it going away anytime soon. Oddly enough I do think about how nice it would be to make up with him but Iam also not gonna forgive and forget so easily this time around.

I cancelled my date today with this 25 year old child because honestly I know already this isn’t for me. I want a real man now and definitely older. I am thinking 35-40 would be a perfect age range for me.

I am looking forward to the next month. It will be the last month at the beach bar and then comes Fall. I am so done with this hot weather. Very much over it. Can’t wait for October to come. – It will be the best!

 

The Week of D R A M A

I spent the entire week away, apart from Saturday because my fitness class was at the beach bar.

The first few days were the hardest… Tuesday & Wednesday were full of drama…

I asked him again if he was seeing this new girl, and he didn’t reply. So of course I asked our mutual friend, but before I do, I tell him that it would be stupid for me to ask other people…He didn not respond to that.

She says yes, they are and asks why… But then says you and he had something? She had no idea! I thought maybe she knew but wasn’t sure… So I give her the entire story briefly and she is a bit shocked coz she says that she thinks they are close.

  • Basically she told me that she would never get involved with a guy like him.
  • That he isn’t boyfriend material
  • That this girl is leaving in 2 weeks

and we talked about some other things, but really it’s all unimportant now.

So since I was on my summer holiday and had a break from work, I actually managed to find a new paradise beach escape where I spent the entire week away. It was exactly what I needed.

He texted me after he talked to this mutual friend, and basically we had a fight over texts. He said it was none of my business and that I am not his family and don’t need to know. I said of course it’s my business when we agreed to start seeing each other again and then he changed plans and didn’t let me know it wasn’t gonna happen. I told him and our friend, that if you aren’t interested, you just inform the other person that you met someone new and that, that is the adult thing to do and not a big deal. Once I spoke to our mutual friend, I was over it. He didn’t let it go, and was fussing over texts…

In his last messages he asked why I was telling people things, and why am saying things that aren’t true and asked what my problem was and told me that I am embarrassing him in front of everyone. I was over it, so I ignored him and did not reply. But my inner thoughts were why wasn’t he telling people the truth and what the heck is his problem acting like a manchild and not an adult, but again I was over it so whatever. After some days and time away I finally replied last night:

All good, all behind us
Don’t wanna fight w you, not worth it

He has a girl, he is supposed to be happy, so he should leave me alone now.

cant see you

Anyways I spent all week away and I wasn’t alone. I was in good company and it was exactly what I needed. On Friday I started getting this anger just thinking about seeing him tomorrow at the beach bar…

On Saturday I was there for my Zumba class and I saw him at the bar right after. He had a new shit haircut and my friend said maybe she cut his hair and we had a laugh about it. I came up with 2 new nicknames for him “fuckhead” and “fuckface” although his friend calls him asshole which is just perfect. I didn’t want to be alone so I texted my friend to come over for moral support.

After my class I wanted to get a small breakfast so I went across the street to the bakery to pick something up. As I am leaving and crossing the road guess who is smiling and saying hi to me – her. We are NOT even friends, even though we all have 1 mutual friend. She never smiles and is always moody, so obviously she has been updated on all this crap. Luckily I am wearing my sunglasses and give her the my resting bitch face and say nothing and move on.

At the bar the vibes were weird coming from them… They looked like brother & sister together or like brother & sister at a funeral. First of all if I had the day off and my girl had the morning/afternoon off, I would take her somewhere special, especially if she is leaving the country in a week or 2. Second, I dunno like WTF, why don’t you show you are interested in this person you are with – everyone there knows about them now anyways. But maybe he wants to look available for the next incoming girl, when this one leaves soon…

My friend arrived and we started drinking, and I got happy drunk and at one point for a long while, all 4 of us were sitting at the bar together; her, him, my guy friend and I at the end. If it was a competition between who was having a better Saturday and more fun, we would have won every hour.

We left a couple of times for food and whatnot and that was noticed too. When we returned the 2nd time, they were gone, finally. Everyone was taking a piss at us, and saying me and my friend are a couple but whatever, I didn’t care. I’m glad he was there for me coz the beach bar wasn’t as busy as usual and I needed someone close to me there to make it through that awful day.

On Sunday my bro came to the rescue and we went to the beach with his girl and I showed him my new fave beach spot. We had a fantastic time and I honestly didn’t wanna leave and go home. My bro’s girl spotted some superhot guy for me, but unfortunately by the time we finished eating at the restaurant area, he was gone. Anyways I had a great time and I started talking to 1 new guy from this place…

I have realized that fuckhead is indeed an asshole and that I deserve better, so kudos to me for moving on finally and cheers to a brand new start! 🙂