The Next 3 Months

SEPTEMBER

I recently started the Ketogenic Diet and so far I’m just blown out of the water by how this way of eating makes you feel. It all started when I was watching this little show called My Diet is Better Than Yours and 1 Diet stood out the most to me on there: The Wild Diet. 

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I was particularly curious about the “fatty coffee” also knows as “keto coffee” and “bulletproof coffee“. That’s pretty much how my research started. To see what that is just go to Youtube and type in any one of those 3 names and tons of videos will pop up with recipes. Basically it’s good quality coffee + good quality butter + good quality MCT oil mixed together, and this is pretty much your new morning beverage.

My first thoughts were butter in coffee? Whaaaat? But I tried it and it’s my fave coffee beverage now and it really does make you feel limitless.

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Ok, maybe not to that extent haha but I’m telling you this is bonkers! Recently I had very bad energy issues – by 2pm I was passing out at work. I couldn’t focus, my head was down at my desk, I wanted to pass out for real. It was affecting my work, I was becoming more agitated, less interested in my work, and more bored really, and most of the all when my energy depleted so fast and so low after lunch, I couldn’t focus on anything but myself.

Because I’ve had issues with my iron levels before, I went and got that checked out and it turned out my iron levels were finally normal this year, improvement! But why was I feeling like I still had anemia? I was completely confused because nothing else was going on with me – I have had a full blood check up test a few months ago and nothing besides iron, red blood cells, ferritin and hemoglobin (all iron related) was off. Everything else was great! My health as far as I knew was all good, apart from this energy issue, which makes me think now that it must have been hormone related perhaps.

So I looked up this crazy coffee, and the wild diet and the keto diet etc, and I found out that carbs are the bad guy, this is why we have no energy. On Keto diet your body uses fat as energy and not sugar from carbs.

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They always warned us that fats are bad, and that carbs are good when I was younger. If you actually look at old food pyramids you will notice that CARBS were on the bottom of the pyramid, which meant that we should consume them the most in our diet and then the rest. Now I believe that this is defo wrong, because back in the day we probably ate meat first, so protein and fat, and then plants and whatever we found. There were no pastries and cakes around or flour for that matter…

There is a lot more to Keto than the diagram above, and I will go into more details in another post when I share some of my resources on this specific diet. Basically it’s no Sugar or Carbs or Grains – the carb amount per day varies from person to person but it can be anything from 20g – 100g of Net Carbs and this number rises if you decide to do carb loading days later. I’m very new to this Keto Journey and I am still finding a lot about it as I go.

I have been on Keto for about a week now and it has definitely changed my energy levels like crazy! I have too much energy now. Basically I have to fix my sleeping schedule now coz it’s throwing me off a bit, all this extra energy. I took my weight and body measurements as well when I started even though I usually don’t do this, I was curious what the difference would be.

As a woman my concern was my monthly cycle and how that was gonna be, because from what I’ve read your cycle will definitely change in some way. For me I can already say the changes I’ve noticed, although I have no idea how next month will be, will wait and see. So Keto is supposed to be amazing for women that suffer from PCOS, just a heads up. Basically my boobs were sore and tender the entire week I started Keto which reminds me of these same symptoms I had (PMS) before I got on Evening Primrose Oil.

Also my ovaries were on fire, like you just feel something is going on there. I knew these were hormonal changes, I wasn’t really worried, because anytime you change your diet and way of eating, your body science internally changes along with it. I was on time this month, not early, not late, and I absolutely had NO PAIN whatsoever! This is definitely a little new for me. I always have cramps, and before I used to have bad ones… In fact I had horrible PMS earlier this year and my gyno put me on Evening Primrose Oil which (after 2 months) started working and I didn’t have sore boobs, chocolate cravings, cramps, bloating, skin breakouts or any of the other PMS issues, but I do remember when I first started taking Evening Primrose Oil, I had this same boob issue, as in they were sore and a bit painful too (hormonal change).

It’s definitely hard to eat so much more fat because recently I was watching my fat intake, not crazily but was making sure I didn’t have a lot of it. I also would have carbs for either lunch or dinner but never both, but now I’m finding out that I actually had carbs all day long because carbs are in EVERYTHING pretty much! Very frustrating.

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I will keep you guys updated with my Keto Journey and weight loss and measurements and all of that. I am also about to join a gym next door as soon I won’t have my weekly Zumba classes or swimming anymore. I also want to tone and add more muscle to my body and feel stronger. Luckily the gym next door has tons of classes I can go to after work so that will be exciting!

OCTOBER

I have a really important wedding this month and I am actually in the wedding, so I’m looking at bridesmaids dresses ideas and everything, because I’m having mine custom made which will be nice. All the bridesmaids will have a ready to wear dress basically. So far we have the color and the length, and we are all allowed to have different styles so this is awesome! 2 of my closest friends are coming from London also for the wedding so I’m super excited and looking forward to this!

NOVEMBER 

I am flying off to London for 5 days. Going to do a little bit of winter sale shopping, visit my friends, enjoy the miserable grey weather 😂 you know, enjoy all the things London has to offer. I haven’t taken a trip out of the country this year, so I’m very much looking forward to this one.

I’m sure a lot more things are to come, but of course, I have no idea what they are and that’s the best part. Stay tuned for more XOXO

 

 

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Time for a New Man or New Project

If you look at the top right corner of my blog page you will notice a new page: The British Fuckhead

Here you will find ALL posts from Guy No 1 Experiment. Unfortunately none of them are interesting to me now since this was after we ended things & we never really started again, so I’m closing this book instead of starting a new re-read chapter.

Right now only the MAY month blog posts are there, but every day I’ll try and add 1 month. Luckily there are only 4 months so should be fast page upgrade.

Looking forward to a fresh new start. Of course now we need a new target, but meanwhile I will start updates on other goals like weight loss, diet changes, fitness changes etc…

 

 

 

Oh Monday…

I hate you…

Actually Monday was fine, apart from this:

I text him this morning via only app I haven’t blocked him on [Snapchat] – mainly because I didn’t even have it on my phone at the time… and I say I want us to be cool…

He is angry at me for stupid shit we went over already & honestly right now I have still overall more reason than him to be angry, but I hate anger & never see the point in holding onto to it. Last time we texted, I wanted to explode at him, but I took the higher road…

Anyways we texted morning/afternoon & he was mostly angry while I was cooler. That’s not even the issue – the issue is it’s the middle of the night & I can’t sleep coz that fuckhead & his anger is eating away at me…

I can’t get him/that off my mind. My current insomnia thoughts are, text him tomorrow/next day & ask if he wants to talk in person. I just want peace & nothing else.

 

Keep Calm, You have been Blocked

On Sunday I didn’t go to the beach bar & it was a great decision. We had another fight via texts & it wasn’t good. I pretty much told him to leave me the hell alone. But I’ve also had enough so I blocked him on ALL Social Media accounts and on my phone. I think he took it seriously this time…

Today he wasn’t at the beach bar which is very odd for him. Hopefully it’s because he knows I hate his guts and don’t want to see his fucking face. I saw her for 5 minutes but then she left too.

She is leaving this coming week I think so it will be nice not to see them again. I don’t think I’m going to the beach bar tomorrow. He gave me my Saturday so I’ll give him his Sunday. Feels like a bad divorce with him now and splitting the beach bar between us.

I am not sure when this anger will stop, but I don’t see it going away anytime soon. Oddly enough I do think about how nice it would be to make up with him but Iam also not gonna forgive and forget so easily this time around.

I cancelled my date today with this 25 year old child because honestly I know already this isn’t for me. I want a real man now and definitely older. I am thinking 35-40 would be a perfect age range for me.

I am looking forward to the next month. It will be the last month at the beach bar and then comes Fall. I am so done with this hot weather. Very much over it. Can’t wait for October to come. – It will be the best!

 

The Week of D R A M A

I spent the entire week away, apart from Saturday because my fitness class was at the beach bar.

The first few days were the hardest… Tuesday & Wednesday were full of drama…

I asked him again if he was seeing this new girl, and he didn’t reply. So of course I asked our mutual friend, but before I do, I tell him that it would be stupid for me to ask other people…He didn not respond to that.

She says yes, they are and asks why… But then says you and he had something? She had no idea! I thought maybe she knew but wasn’t sure… So I give her the entire story briefly and she is a bit shocked coz she says that she thinks they are close.

  • Basically she told me that she would never get involved with a guy like him.
  • That he isn’t boyfriend material
  • That this girl is leaving in 2 weeks

and we talked about some other things, but really it’s all unimportant now.

So since I was on my summer holiday and had a break from work, I actually managed to find a new paradise beach escape where I spent the entire week away. It was exactly what I needed.

He texted me after he talked to this mutual friend, and basically we had a fight over texts. He said it was none of my business and that I am not his family and don’t need to know. I said of course it’s my business when we agreed to start seeing each other again and then he changed plans and didn’t let me know it wasn’t gonna happen. I told him and our friend, that if you aren’t interested, you just inform the other person that you met someone new and that, that is the adult thing to do and not a big deal. Once I spoke to our mutual friend, I was over it. He didn’t let it go, and was fussing over texts…

In his last messages he asked why I was telling people things, and why am saying things that aren’t true and asked what my problem was and told me that I am embarrassing him in front of everyone. I was over it, so I ignored him and did not reply. But my inner thoughts were why wasn’t he telling people the truth and what the heck is his problem acting like a manchild and not an adult, but again I was over it so whatever. After some days and time away I finally replied last night:

All good, all behind us
Don’t wanna fight w you, not worth it

He has a girl, he is supposed to be happy, so he should leave me alone now.

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Anyways I spent all week away and I wasn’t alone. I was in good company and it was exactly what I needed. On Friday I started getting this anger just thinking about seeing him tomorrow at the beach bar…

On Saturday I was there for my Zumba class and I saw him at the bar right after. He had a new shit haircut and my friend said maybe she cut his hair and we had a laugh about it. I came up with 2 new nicknames for him “fuckhead” and “fuckface” although his friend calls him asshole which is just perfect. I didn’t want to be alone so I texted my friend to come over for moral support.

After my class I wanted to get a small breakfast so I went across the street to the bakery to pick something up. As I am leaving and crossing the road guess who is smiling and saying hi to me – her. We are NOT even friends, even though we all have 1 mutual friend. She never smiles and is always moody, so obviously she has been updated on all this crap. Luckily I am wearing my sunglasses and give her the my resting bitch face and say nothing and move on.

At the bar the vibes were weird coming from them… They looked like brother & sister together or like brother & sister at a funeral. First of all if I had the day off and my girl had the morning/afternoon off, I would take her somewhere special, especially if she is leaving the country in a week or 2. Second, I dunno like WTF, why don’t you show you are interested in this person you are with – everyone there knows about them now anyways. But maybe he wants to look available for the next incoming girl, when this one leaves soon…

My friend arrived and we started drinking, and I got happy drunk and at one point for a long while, all 4 of us were sitting at the bar together; her, him, my guy friend and I at the end. If it was a competition between who was having a better Saturday and more fun, we would have won every hour.

We left a couple of times for food and whatnot and that was noticed too. When we returned the 2nd time, they were gone, finally. Everyone was taking a piss at us, and saying me and my friend are a couple but whatever, I didn’t care. I’m glad he was there for me coz the beach bar wasn’t as busy as usual and I needed someone close to me there to make it through that awful day.

On Sunday my bro came to the rescue and we went to the beach with his girl and I showed him my new fave beach spot. We had a fantastic time and I honestly didn’t wanna leave and go home. My bro’s girl spotted some superhot guy for me, but unfortunately by the time we finished eating at the restaurant area, he was gone. Anyways I had a great time and I started talking to 1 new guy from this place…

I have realized that fuckhead is indeed an asshole and that I deserve better, so kudos to me for moving on finally and cheers to a brand new start! 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

M O N D A Y

Pretty sure he took the day off today as it’s his birthday, so I’m avoiding the beach bar today, and tomorrow too, as I know he will be there for sure. Instead I made different plans and a change of scenery will do me good.

I didn’t think sending him a happy birthday text would be a good idea, but fuck it, I’m not a dick, so I did. If he doesn’t respond with a thank you, then obviously he’s a dick.

It’s time to take this useless energy and invest it solely in me again, and be very, very, selfish in my decisions, to protect my own happiness and cultivate it. That’s what I’m doing this week and I know this is for the best.

I’m still focusing on weight loss and working out and so far I’ve lost about 7 lbs. It’s a very slow process but it’s working and the weight is staying off. I am losing about 2.2 lbs a month, so it’s slow but steady. My goal is to tone and tighten and I have the drive and the patience for it.

My favorite workouts are swimming and Zumba right now during these hot summer months. Unfortunately it’s been pretty windy, so there are always waves in the water which is very annoying while swimming but I still do it. Zumba I love because it’s a group workout, and you really burn a lot of calories during this 1 hour group session, and it also makes you so happy as dancing is fun and the music is great.

Looking forward to this awesome week off of fun, sun, sea and relaxation. XOXO

UPDATE: He texted me to thank me for the birthday wishes. So he isn’t a complete dick after all but he might be a dick regardless, who knows… I’m gonna quietly remove myself from this situation and let pieces fall where they may because I have my own life to live.

Another guy, a new guy likes me and this of course has given me some power back, but I’m not interested in him, only as a friend, but still it’s always nice to be desired.

UPDATE #2: My friend who is also his friend specifically asked me What about you and (his name) and if anything was going on now……. I haven’t talked to her about him in months, so I was surprised that she brought him up, especially since last time when we couldn’t get together we moved on from that convo and topic for good. Hmm has he said anything to her about me? Perhaps but I’m thinking highly unlikely… Interesting…

 

 

Not the Update I was looking for…

I think I found out what that recent change in behavior was all about. I have noticed that he has been spending some time with one of the beach bar servers… I didn’t think too deeply into it at first because this girl is moody and never smiles and has this sort of energy around her that just isn’t a pleasant happy one.

On my day off and his day off too, on Wednesday when I got to the beach bar, he was there chatting with her, just casual convo, something about one of his life experiences, sharing some info with her and then he asked her if she knows how to play Checkers and they played a game together.

Last weekend, I also saw a video online of them out with other mutual friends after work and yes a thought of maybe something is happening/could happen here has crossed my mind but then again I know they are all friends and hang out so I didn’t think too much of it.

Also today I saw them chatting at the beach bar for a bit.

I saw something online a few hours ago, a video of both of them at the beach bar and the person that shared the video basically wrote that they are starting a romance together or whatever and that it’s new and that it’s a secret. Of course now I can’t sleep……

I texted and asked if she was his girlfriend…. Because I have to know, I don’t know why, but I do. And I feel this urgency to know if it’s real ASAP. Hopefully I get some sleep tonight. I will see them both at the beach bar tomorrow.