SUNDAY: not as much of a funday after all

Sunday started off ok. I saw him early on and was fine with it.

Then after 1-2 hours I saw her and actually felt sorry for her. They work them hard at the beach bar. Saw her carrying heavy ice trays and emptying them and she had a hole on the back of her black tight shorts on the butt. But I mean we all pick our jobs, they don’t pick us, so I shouldn’t feel bad. I spoke to my friends when I got home, and one of them said don’t feel sorry for her and she is right, I shouldn’t.

I still don’t know if the rumor is true but I didn’t want to find out either, although I had the opportunity to.

I just wanted the time to fly by fast and the day to be done.

I was fine up until about 6 or so. After my mood just got weird, but I think it was the combo of not enough sleep, getting my period early in the morning and way too many people came to the beach bar. It was overcrowded and it was too much for me, so I left early. I also couldn’t look at him after anymore. He gave me this look, a good look and it just killed me. I felt like I needed a break from him.

I got home and texted with my girlfriends who made me feel better, but are unfortunately all far away; London and Arizona. What I needed was a Girls Night in with a good comedy or rom com, wine and treats. I watched one of my fave rom com movies and went to sleep after.

 

 

C O N F U S E D

I am a bit confused at the moment… I told my guy last week that I have today off & he agreed he wanted to see me. But the closer we got to my day off, the more I felt like there was something in the way again – not sure what.

Today I sent him hot pic but no reply, now that’s off – very weird. I thought ok he is with someone, that’s the only explanation that makes sense to me. So I get to my beach bar & guess who is there enjoying their day off too? Yup, him.

Nothing happened today. We did our separate things. I met a cute navy guy, we kissed a little & he gave me a cool gift.

Last weekend he was checking me out on Friday during a party while I was making new friends, 2 new guys I met. Saturday he was starring at me, dunno why but I caught him several times. Even his grandpa who visited the beach bar for an hour or 2 was checking me out, funny. On Sunday nothing happened, did our own thing.

I honestly got excited about seeing him again up until he started acting strange. Ahhh also his very close friend found out last weekend that we were hooking up via another friend & he actually didn’t believe it. Not sure why exactly.

Right now, I’m gonna leave it alone. I honestly believe if a guy wants you, he will go get you. Men are hunters, it’s how they roll. Meanwhile I’m gonna keep meeting new people & keep making new friends.

 

Weekend Update in short

Friday

I went to the best beach party I’ve ever been to, had a blast, met a lot of people & grabbed my guy’s ass when I drunk & then hid behind my new friend.

Saturday

I enjoyed an entire day at the beach. He was there too for the most part of the day. Saw a fortune teller & she said to not overthink things & just have fun & be playful when it comes to current love life. She also said the decision is all mine since I already have this person – that it was just up to me to say yes or no & lead the way.

Sunday Funday

I arrived late at the party but it was absolutely happening when I got there. Quickly caught up on drinking, met new people & got some free drinks. He was there too. At first he appeared to be having fun but later was more chill, dunno why.

As for me, I was on another level. The entire evening was lit for me & even my body was burning with crazy wild fire of desire for him, as he stood a few feet away from me. We pretend we don’t know each other there. And I absolutely love the secrecy.

I don’t know why I’m feeling amazing right now, but this Sun in Leo phase is defo affecting me for the better. Looking forward to my long holiday starting next week & of course as always the weekend.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ex Lover Update

Saturday I went to the beach bar & my ex lover guy wasn’t there. I noticed that my Saturday was different without him. His friend, who is my friend again, who also fancies me, asked me what was going on between us & if we are still seeing each other & all that. I told him that we weren’t together for months now, but the way he was responding back, his gestures & replies just told me that they have been discussing me together. He also asked me about other guys & told me that he saw me make out with that 1 guy that 1 Saturday. He also asked me if I slept with that guy (again I dunno if he is asking for himself or for his friend) & of course I said that nothing happened between us besides that kissing session that 1 Saturday.

Saturday afternoon was just weird vibes & a lot of people, the regulars weren’t there, and the music wasn’t great. It was this monotonous repetitive sounds and beats that didn’t have much life to it, so of course my energy was down a bit. Luckily my guy friends came over there & I chilled with them for a bit & we all enjoyed a drink & talked.

Later after they left, I got a bit bored & got ready to go to the Music Festival for some awesome House music. When I got there, I saw my guy & was pretty happy to find him there. He said hi to me. His friend was there too now. We walked over together to my ex lover’s table and some of his close guy friends I hadn’t met yet were there too. Now things got a bit weird, because his friend said something like “your ex boyfriend is here (pointing at my guy) and your new boyfriend is here” he meant himself, as a joke of course coz they do that apparently, but it wasn’t funny & since I didn’t know the guys at the table, I didn’t want to to make any comments.

Neither one of us denied that he was my ex. But thing got even more weird when his friend said that I was his girlfriend, as a joke again. My guy’s reaction wasn’t good. He raised his voice & said “YOUR GIRLFRIEND?” & repeated it again, and as he was saying this you could tell that he was a bit pissed off & wasn’t happy about it. I’m not sure how he didn’t get that this was of course just a joke, especially since his friend told me that he always does that to him with girls he goes out with. I said something like “guys please just stop” coz it was embarrassing & didn’t make me look god regardless if it was true or not. You see I don’t screw the crew – I have a code: Pick 1 guy & all his friends & co-workers are off limits. We talked about this before & I told him about it. I then walked off with his friend & told him that I didn’t like that & because I saw my guy looking our way I gestured with my hands too so he knows I wasn’t happy about what just went down.

Anyways the Music Festival was a blast & I had a great time there. On Sunday he was at the beach bar and I saw him look my way & I looked away, but then looked back at him & he was still looking at me, so I looked at him too. It was one of those ok I’m interested in this person again a bit sort of looks for both of us. Sunday was a bit weird for me but it was still fun. I somehow managed to get a new love interest, not on my side, but a guy interested in me that I’m totally not interested in.

On Monday night I had a giant glass of red wine & texted him late in the evening saying that we should have fun again sometime. On Tuesday since I didn’t get a morning reply, I was starting to think that I won’t get one & that was ok too. Just as I completely moved on from it, I got his text at lunch break from him that he would like that too. This made me excited which is nice. This time around it’s just the icing on my cake, whereas before he was my cake. So I think things will be different for me now since I’m already happy. I am very much looking forward to seeing him again. I think we will have a lot of fun together. Stay tuned for more 🙂

 

Thursday Night

Last night I had a glass of red again & unlike Wednesday night I did not text my ex lover. As usual he liked a bunch of my Instagram pics (weekly thing) that usually happens on Monday morning around 9am or Tuesday at the latest, but this week was different. He is either very busy with work or a new person in his life or both.

It’s F R I D A Y & I’m excited for this weekend! Tomorrow morning I have a 10am workout class to go to, then swimming, lunch (at the beach) more swimming & then a music festival with my friends and I’m not sure yet but I might even go to the after party. Just gonna go with the flow & if the flow is good, I continue.

Sunday Funday again beach & music festival – should be fun!

Wishing everyone a very happy & fun weekend ahead! XOXO

 

 

 

Monday Thoughts

I’ve got absolutely N O T H I N G to say about this weekend when it comes to this guy. We avoid each other and that’s it.

I did however recently realize that he is unique in a sense that he has this fun quality about him that most guys I’ve been meeting lack. I’m just bored of the regular guys that are predictable, have same lines, same approach, and that are SO into me, it’s such a turn off, all of it. I do have to start talking to new guys again, but I just haven’t met anyone that’s interesting enough yet.

Anyways I’m looking forward to the weekend again and hope to meet some new guys. I will actually try and make an effort this weekend, because this last weekend I just went out to enjoy myself and relax and party. Of course guys approached me, but I wasn’t interested in any of them. I did end up having an amazing weekend. I tried a new workout too, Zumba and I think I will join the weekly Saturday morning class and keep up with it while it’s available.

My life right now is pretty awesome, every aspect of it. Love life is quiet, but I wouln’t want it any other way at the moment. If i see something I like, I grab it, so not really concerned about that. Looking forward to whatever comes next. Happy Week to you ALL! XOXO

 

What Now?

Oh man, what a weekend! I don’t know where to start so I will just start from the beginning.

Friday: I was supposed to meet my new guy at the beach club Friday night but he totally stood me up. I didn’t really care though.We texted, and at some point I thought well since he didn’t show up I won’t text him anymore for the night, and when he said text me when you wake up, I replied I won’t… then he texted back something like is everything ok, how are you and I didn’t reply right away, and then later told him I met new friends. He instantly texted back: New boyfriend? 😦 I explained that a guy stepped on my foot  & then bought me a drink, that’s all… I still had a good time at the beach club & my friends came anyways. I also met another new  guy who had the cutest accent, exchanged numbers.

Saturday: Me & old guy (the guy) walk into the beach bar at the same time around noon, but from different sides of the entrance so we are facing each other when we walk in, funny… My new guy came over after an hour or so or 2 and he kissed me on the cheek as if he was greeting a friend, hmmm, weird… We talked a bit & my old guy must have been looking at us because my new guy was looking at the old guy too, weird…

He buys me a drink, we chat a bit and he says he has to go run errands for his sister’s pool party that evening which he invited me to… The funny thing is he tells me come walk me out, and doesn’t give me a kiss, says “not here” (RED FLAG) and we have a quick kiss on the lips goodbye.

Old guy is still looking well yummy & it’s hard not to find someone you slept with already attractive again when you are spending 8 hours together at the beach in your swimwear. Saturday party at the beach club was amazing, loved every minute of it! My girlfriends were there too.

Sunday Funday: We were at our fave place all day long again. My new guy texted me Where are you at some point & since I’m having a good time, I don’t open the message or respond right away… I reply 3 hours later saying AT THE BEACH CLUB, IT’S CRAY to annoy him a bit & almost in that How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days way… We don’t text again…

I met my new guy friends there by accident (recent ones, I met almost a month ago or so)  and I actually find 1 attractive & flirt with him & he flirts back. Overall have an epic time. I also spend some time with the tourist guy that stepped on my foot on Friday night & well I am getting a lot of attention from a lot of different guys so I can have my pick now. Not in a hurry to choose anyone yet though.

Yesterday I liked my old guy’s insta photo from yesterday just to mindfuck back with him since he pulled that on me last week. In return he likes 6 of my photos from the weekend from the beach bar this morning – interesting…What will happen next? I have no clue!