Confused – Part 2

I saw him tonight and I’m confused again. He has been looking at me a lot. You don’t look at someone you don’t like like this. We were standing close to each other too. As I was picking up my bag and beach towel and was ready to leave the beach bar area, he was observing my every move. I noticed that as soon as I left, he left the beach bar area too.

I don’t know what’s up, but I might keep an eye on how he behaves. I didn’t really look at him much, not after that text I sent last night. I completely ignored him tonight. I usually do. I guess from outside it looks like I’m the one that doesn’t give a fuck.

His eyes on me felt good though. I missed his attention. I crave it.
I can’t look at him for too long, I always feel like I’m getting sucked in.

I don’t know how to explain what I was feeling, I just wanted it to continue and I wanted more. As I was leaving, fantasies in my mind started playing…

Weekend Update in short

Friday

I went to the best beach party I’ve ever been to, had a blast, met a lot of people & grabbed my guy’s ass when I drunk & then hid behind my new friend.

Saturday

I enjoyed an entire day at the beach. He was there too for the most part of the day. Saw a fortune teller & she said to not overthink things & just have fun & be playful when it comes to current love life. She also said the decision is all mine since I already have this person – that it was just up to me to say yes or no & lead the way.

Sunday Funday

I arrived late at the party but it was absolutely happening when I got there. Quickly caught up on drinking, met new people & got some free drinks. He was there too. At first he appeared to be having fun but later was more chill, dunno why.

As for me, I was on another level. The entire evening was lit for me & even my body was burning with crazy wild fire of desire for him, as he stood a few feet away from me. We pretend we don’t know each other there. And I absolutely love the secrecy.

I don’t know why I’m feeling amazing right now, but this Sun in Leo phase is defo affecting me for the better. Looking forward to my long holiday starting next week & of course as always the weekend.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thursday Night

Last night I had a glass of red again & unlike Wednesday night I did not text my ex lover. As usual he liked a bunch of my Instagram pics (weekly thing) that usually happens on Monday morning around 9am or Tuesday at the latest, but this week was different. He is either very busy with work or a new person in his life or both.

It’s F R I D A Y & I’m excited for this weekend! Tomorrow morning I have a 10am workout class to go to, then swimming, lunch (at the beach) more swimming & then a music festival with my friends and I’m not sure yet but I might even go to the after party. Just gonna go with the flow & if the flow is good, I continue.

Sunday Funday again beach & music festival – should be fun!

Wishing everyone a very happy & fun weekend ahead! XOXO

 

 

 

What Now?

Oh man, what a weekend! I don’t know where to start so I will just start from the beginning.

Friday: I was supposed to meet my new guy at the beach club Friday night but he totally stood me up. I didn’t really care though.We texted, and at some point I thought well since he didn’t show up I won’t text him anymore for the night, and when he said text me when you wake up, I replied I won’t… then he texted back something like is everything ok, how are you and I didn’t reply right away, and then later told him I met new friends. He instantly texted back: New boyfriend? 😦 I explained that a guy stepped on my foot  & then bought me a drink, that’s all… I still had a good time at the beach club & my friends came anyways. I also met another new  guy who had the cutest accent, exchanged numbers.

Saturday: Me & old guy (the guy) walk into the beach bar at the same time around noon, but from different sides of the entrance so we are facing each other when we walk in, funny… My new guy came over after an hour or so or 2 and he kissed me on the cheek as if he was greeting a friend, hmmm, weird… We talked a bit & my old guy must have been looking at us because my new guy was looking at the old guy too, weird…

He buys me a drink, we chat a bit and he says he has to go run errands for his sister’s pool party that evening which he invited me to… The funny thing is he tells me come walk me out, and doesn’t give me a kiss, says “not here” (RED FLAG) and we have a quick kiss on the lips goodbye.

Old guy is still looking well yummy & it’s hard not to find someone you slept with already attractive again when you are spending 8 hours together at the beach in your swimwear. Saturday party at the beach club was amazing, loved every minute of it! My girlfriends were there too.

Sunday Funday: We were at our fave place all day long again. My new guy texted me Where are you at some point & since I’m having a good time, I don’t open the message or respond right away… I reply 3 hours later saying AT THE BEACH CLUB, IT’S CRAY to annoy him a bit & almost in that How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days way… We don’t text again…

I met my new guy friends there by accident (recent ones, I met almost a month ago or so)  and I actually find 1 attractive & flirt with him & he flirts back. Overall have an epic time. I also spend some time with the tourist guy that stepped on my foot on Friday night & well I am getting a lot of attention from a lot of different guys so I can have my pick now. Not in a hurry to choose anyone yet though.

Yesterday I liked my old guy’s insta photo from yesterday just to mindfuck back with him since he pulled that on me last week. In return he likes 6 of my photos from the weekend from the beach bar this morning – interesting…What will happen next? I have no clue!